A Peek Into My Life
Friday, April 09, 2004
I'm really really hot...everytime my records drop....radio says I won't stop....cuz' I'm killin 'em. That song was in my head. Well well. It's Friday no school today. B-day coming in like 10 days. School is almost over and Allison and I are not only gonna be in AOF together but also going to San Pedro camp! I love summer. This one better rock. I'm also gonna work at Sanp Pedro as a counselor for a couple weeks. Hope that will be memorable. Monika is going to high school, I'm so excited. I'll have someone to wake up with in the mornings, and someone to go home on the bus with! A little more then a week ago, Monika and I went to that Britney Spears concert. It was Hot Hot Hot! We had great seats but the crowd by us wasn't hyped up enough. Seeing the concert and Britney in front of me I though she's overrated. She's a great dancer and hott but without all her dancers and the lights and the special effects, she's not that amazing. And nowadays there are more girls that are hotter then her. But I still like this album of hers the best. SO I got into the Talent show. It will be this Friday. As Chip Douglas says, Congratulations to me! Hah, Krystal didn't get in and it got me pissed. I also won't be seeing her in Leadership next year, that sux. SO life's going well. I'm so tired of school though, all the work is just old now. AP test in less then a month! Eek! I want to pass but I won't be crying if I don't. Just less then two months. We can do it.........This song here, has some really deep words. Heard this guy on Oprah, and the song is great, so here are the lyrics: Spend My Time by Clint Black
How can we know how far,
The long way can be?
Looking from where we are,
It never seemed that long to me.
I've many miles behind me,
Maybe not so much ahead.
It seems I made good time,
With the directions I misread.
So I'm gonna spend my time,
Like it's going out of style.
I'm moving the bottom line,
Farther than a country mile.
I still have hills to climb,
Before I hit that wall.
No matter how much time I buy,
I can never spend it all.
Funny thing, that time:
We're always running out.
I'm always losing mine,
There's not enough of it about.
An' though it's always here,
It will always come and go.
The days become the years,
That'll be gone before you know.
So I'm gonna spend my time,
Like it's going out of style.
I'm moving the bottom line,
Better than a country mile.
I still have hills to climb,
Before I hit that wall.
I won't go quietly into that dark night.
There'll be no more burnin' daylight.
I'll be living in,
Every moment that I'm in.
Oh,I'm gonna spend my time,
Like it's going out of style.
I'll only use what's mine,
I've been savin' for a while.
I still have hills to climb,
Before I hit that wall.
No matter how much time I buy,
I can never spend it all.
No matter how much time we buy,
We can never spend it all.
I'm gonna spend my time.
I'm gonna spend my time.
How can we know how far,
The long way can be?
Looking from where we are,
It never seemed that long to me.
I've many miles behind me,
Maybe not so much ahead.
It seems I made good time,
With the directions I misread.
So I'm gonna spend my time,
Like it's going out of style.
I'm moving the bottom line,
Farther than a country mile.
I still have hills to climb,
Before I hit that wall.
No matter how much time I buy,
I can never spend it all.
Funny thing, that time:
We're always running out.
I'm always losing mine,
There's not enough of it about.
An' though it's always here,
It will always come and go.
The days become the years,
That'll be gone before you know.
So I'm gonna spend my time,
Like it's going out of style.
I'm moving the bottom line,
Better than a country mile.
I still have hills to climb,
Before I hit that wall.
I won't go quietly into that dark night.
There'll be no more burnin' daylight.
I'll be living in,
Every moment that I'm in.
Oh,I'm gonna spend my time,
Like it's going out of style.
I'll only use what's mine,
I've been savin' for a while.
I still have hills to climb,
Before I hit that wall.
No matter how much time I buy,
I can never spend it all.
No matter how much time we buy,
We can never spend it all.
I'm gonna spend my time.
I'm gonna spend my time.
Saturday, February 21, 2004
Bored. I'm supposed to be jogging 5 miles right now but (heh) stopped at half a mile cuz i have a cramp. Dang it! LoL Got on the scale and lost another pound. But u know what? I'm deprevied of food. really, i feel weak. I felt so pumped up to jog the 5M this morning but now i feel like not doing it. I gotta do sumthin though...mabye after i get some energy. I'm pissed cuz today is the day I'm only to eat bananas and drink skim milk and water. My mom thought it was "fat free" milk so now we have a gallon of it. I already opened it so can't take it back, but I need some milk! My skim milk! I'm super strict when it comes to diets and I need what i need. I don't have it so I'm pissed cuz what if this won't let me lose weight! Guess I'll make it up by drinking the "fat fee" milk and jogging 5 miles (now 4.5) somewhere in the day. I need to lose weight as fast as possible, summer is coming soon. I'm tired of getting depressed by how I look. Won't go into it any further cuz what I'm thinking might really sound weird to u. SO I'll leave it at that.
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now lyrics from STARSHIP
Looking in your eyes I see a paradise
This world that I found is too good to be true
Standing here beside you, want so much to give you
This love in my heart that I'm feeling for you
Let 'em say we're crazy, I don't care 'bout that
Put your hand in my hand baby, don't ever look back
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart
And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now
Woh woh oh
I'm so glad I found you, I'm not gonna lose you
Whatever it takes, I will stay here with you
Take it to the good times, see it through the bad times
Whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do
Let 'em say we're crazy, what do they know
Put your arms around me baby, don't ever let go
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart
And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us
Ooh, all that I need is you, all that I ever need
And all that I want to do, is hold you forever, forever and ever
And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us
(And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever)
Woh oh oh-oh-oh (nothing's gonna stop us now)
Nothing's gonna stop us (world runs out of lovers)
Now (we'll still have each other)
(Nothing's gonna stop us) us now
(And we can build this dream together) hey baby
(Standing strong forever) I know
(Nothing's gonna stop us now)
Looking in your eyes I see a paradise
This world that I found is too good to be true
Standing here beside you, want so much to give you
This love in my heart that I'm feeling for you
Let 'em say we're crazy, I don't care 'bout that
Put your hand in my hand baby, don't ever look back
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart
And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now
Woh woh oh
I'm so glad I found you, I'm not gonna lose you
Whatever it takes, I will stay here with you
Take it to the good times, see it through the bad times
Whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do
Let 'em say we're crazy, what do they know
Put your arms around me baby, don't ever let go
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart
And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us
Ooh, all that I need is you, all that I ever need
And all that I want to do, is hold you forever, forever and ever
And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us
(And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever)
Woh oh oh-oh-oh (nothing's gonna stop us now)
Nothing's gonna stop us (world runs out of lovers)
Now (we'll still have each other)
(Nothing's gonna stop us) us now
(And we can build this dream together) hey baby
(Standing strong forever) I know
(Nothing's gonna stop us now)
Monday, February 16, 2004
Sooo it is Monday, no school, Valentine's Day has passed. I cheated. On the diet. Cuz its a holiday u know and I needed some tasty pleasures. Mmm was cheatimg good? very. Not to worry, I'm back on it again with my new best friend, the treadmill. So it is Monday like I said and I'm alone at home just being at peace. I know I have to accomplish some things throughout today, but am not going to think about them right now. I finished Fcat Explorer and have been listening to "Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now" by Starship for like an hour. This song has put me in a mood. A mood for romance. HeHe. Yes I feel there are those times when a single person, sitting at home, feels they want a boyfriend or girlfriend that will take them out somewhere, anywhere and they can just be together, make out, and have a good laugh. I'll get out of this mood probably when I stop listening to the song but for now, I'm daydreaming of having a guy here by me. Anywho I decided it's best to date a guy who you knew as a friend before, because if I found out a dude liked me and I went with him, I'd just feel awkward if we didn't know eachother before. So I've made a list of qualities I want my prince charming to have. Here goes: from most important to least
#1. He needs to be madly in love with me. He needs to know how special I am and be certain that I'm the soul that was meant to be mates with his soul. This is because I can't like a guy who doesn't completely, fully like me.
#2. Gotta be loyal and respectful. Sure you can look at other girls but you have to truly think I'm the most beautiful girl and respect me as your equal, not as someone below you.
#3.Truthful. You have to tell me the truth always, thats all there is to it.
#3.5. Makes me laugh.
#4.Romantic. I need a man who I can be in love with forever. Thatmeans we have to keep our love alive by romanticizing everything. Kepp on flirting .This quality follows quality #1.
#4. Good grinder. I dunno but ever since I saw save the Last Dance I've wanted a dude who can grind his body against mine when we dance. I just think its so sexy when a guy and you dance real close like in Dirty Dancing.
#5. Know how to please a female. This one is adult material kids but this list will have no gaps because of fears of offending anyone.
#6. Has to have goals for himself and at least try to fulfill them.
#7. Has to play a sport(dancing to me is a sport) or at least exercise regularly.
#8. Gotta be comfortable with himself nd be outgoing.
#9. Good grades in school.
#10. Taller then me.
#11. Sexy eyes.
#12. Moviebuff
#13. not and aethiest. sorry but aethiests get me depressed
#14. Be optimistic not a pessimist
#15. Have self-disciple
#16. Manners
#17. Adventorous, by this I mean we can travel and he's not afraid to get his hands dirty
# 18. Suprises me. ex:getaways, concert tickets, hot air balloon rides, I guess this one goes with # 4
#19. Sings, diesnt have tp be good but likes to sing his songs and mabyes sing to me, like I would to him.
#20. My family like him and visa versa.
That is all for now because I need to go. Anyways, I believe I'll have this wonderful man soon. I dream I will. till later...............
#1. He needs to be madly in love with me. He needs to know how special I am and be certain that I'm the soul that was meant to be mates with his soul. This is because I can't like a guy who doesn't completely, fully like me.
#2. Gotta be loyal and respectful. Sure you can look at other girls but you have to truly think I'm the most beautiful girl and respect me as your equal, not as someone below you.
#3.Truthful. You have to tell me the truth always, thats all there is to it.
#3.5. Makes me laugh.
#4.Romantic. I need a man who I can be in love with forever. Thatmeans we have to keep our love alive by romanticizing everything. Kepp on flirting .This quality follows quality #1.
#4. Good grinder. I dunno but ever since I saw save the Last Dance I've wanted a dude who can grind his body against mine when we dance. I just think its so sexy when a guy and you dance real close like in Dirty Dancing.
#5. Know how to please a female. This one is adult material kids but this list will have no gaps because of fears of offending anyone.
#6. Has to have goals for himself and at least try to fulfill them.
#7. Has to play a sport(dancing to me is a sport) or at least exercise regularly.
#8. Gotta be comfortable with himself nd be outgoing.
#9. Good grades in school.
#10. Taller then me.
#11. Sexy eyes.
#12. Moviebuff
#13. not and aethiest. sorry but aethiests get me depressed
#14. Be optimistic not a pessimist
#15. Have self-disciple
#16. Manners
#17. Adventorous, by this I mean we can travel and he's not afraid to get his hands dirty
# 18. Suprises me. ex:getaways, concert tickets, hot air balloon rides, I guess this one goes with # 4
#19. Sings, diesnt have tp be good but likes to sing his songs and mabyes sing to me, like I would to him.
#20. My family like him and visa versa.
That is all for now because I need to go. Anyways, I believe I'll have this wonderful man soon. I dream I will. till later...............
Thursday, February 05, 2004
I'm writing to get rid of the HEYYY thats so long its making everything else so long. soo, humm, humm I'm on Atkins, lost 11 lbs. in less then a month!
So cant wait till Monika gets to high school, she's gonna have to wake up at 6! thats 2 hours earlier then when she does now. it'll be nice to share the pain with someone. I'm probably gonna have to wake her up. It'll be great, we'll ride the bus together, see eachother at school. Monika says to me her school life is easier because of me. She says people know who she is because they know me, like teachers and even students. Its very kool but I don't have that benefit. Its up to me to get "liked" and known by people and then Monika is automatically liked because she's my sister, an Olenderek. Though I know she's gonna have Mr. Robie, like I did, I don't know if she'll have any of my other teachers. But omg, I grew up so much 1st year in high school. I'm so scared for her. I want her to always stay my little great sister. Not some person flirting with boys and doing stupid things. I hope she stays on the right path. I believe she will. I will stay by her side and help her out, I love her and that's what I'm here for. Though she already doesn't really need help from me, I know I have some good advice. I hope she looks up to me. I'm trying to be a great role model, but I'm not perfect. Well, in a few months, I'll see for myself if Monika will be Monika, or will she change to "fit in." Yeek! Either way, everything's gonna be alright :-)I have hope
So cant wait till Monika gets to high school, she's gonna have to wake up at 6! thats 2 hours earlier then when she does now. it'll be nice to share the pain with someone. I'm probably gonna have to wake her up. It'll be great, we'll ride the bus together, see eachother at school. Monika says to me her school life is easier because of me. She says people know who she is because they know me, like teachers and even students. Its very kool but I don't have that benefit. Its up to me to get "liked" and known by people and then Monika is automatically liked because she's my sister, an Olenderek. Though I know she's gonna have Mr. Robie, like I did, I don't know if she'll have any of my other teachers. But omg, I grew up so much 1st year in high school. I'm so scared for her. I want her to always stay my little great sister. Not some person flirting with boys and doing stupid things. I hope she stays on the right path. I believe she will. I will stay by her side and help her out, I love her and that's what I'm here for. Though she already doesn't really need help from me, I know I have some good advice. I hope she looks up to me. I'm trying to be a great role model, but I'm not perfect. Well, in a few months, I'll see for myself if Monika will be Monika, or will she change to "fit in." Yeek! Either way, everything's gonna be alright :-)I have hope
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Guess my thoughts were incorrect. Tracy just got eliminated from the Mole!!! Now I think it's Rodman with my mum
You are going to marry Justin Tiberlake. He has a
wonderful sense of humor and pours his heart
and soul into everything he does or ever will
do. Congrats!!
Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (now 12 (i just added more, and still more to come!)results that have pics!)
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You are blessed with FAERY wings. Beauty,
laughter, life, magic...that's what you are all
about. You are refreshingly innocent and happy
with your life of purity and play. Life's a
game and it's a good one. In your eyes there's
no way to lose! You can be very mischeivous and
have been known to cause trouble, but it's all
in the name of fun and not meant to really harm
anyone. You like to play tricks on people who
aren't quite as bright or clever as you - which
is almost everyone. Nature is the setting you
prefer to be in - Always. Barefoot and wild you
can't be tamed. You're probably a restless
spirit who loves to travel, and quite a
dreamer. Your creativity is astounding and your
art (of whatever media - from writing to
painting to drama) is like something from
another world - ethereal and often very
fantasy-oriented. You can either be a social
butterfly or a loner with their head in the
clouds - but rarely inbetween. You stubbornly
refuse to accept responsibility or to give in
to the wishes of others - unless you feel like
it. You have a strong passion for music and
can't imagine life without it. You'll grow up
someday, but you'll always be a child at heart.
You are adventurous and love to take risks, and
feel a deep connection with the weather,
plants, and animals. You prefer sunshine to
thunder or snow, the warmth of summer to
autumn's chill, and quiet forests to suburban
backyards. Magic through and through, you are
far more powerful than you seem, and are
capable of being extremely passionate. Though
you can be childish, naive, stubborn, and self-
absorbed, one thing is certain - life with you
will never be boring!
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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Well well well. Havent wrote in a while I know. But instead of catching up, this one will be a short one, I gotta do stuff. So, Return of the King had come out and its wondeful, it won best picture at Golden Globes. Grammys this weekend! Oscars in 3 weekends! Monika and I have tickets to the Britney Spears concert on Monday on March 29, 2004. Have to admit I'm so excited. Her concerts are amazing from what I've seen on TV. Her Cd I do not have but "got hold of" all her songs anyway. This album is much better then her others I think. It's much more dancy and here are parts of some lyrics to some of her songs: SONG "TOUCH OF MY HAND"~"I shut myself out from the world so I can draw the blinds, and I teach myself to fly. Cause I just discovered, imagination's taking over, another day without a lover. The more I come to understand, the touch of my hand." SONG "BREATHE ON ME"~"Boy, don't stop cause I'm half way there. Just breathe on me, ooh baby just, breathe on me, we don't need top touch just...breathe." SONG "EARLY MORNIN`"~"I light your fire
Your one desire, Pull on me, baby And I'll take you higher You should try her, So come over here and let's go so"
Woah wonder how she's gonna perform those songs!!! Um watching celebrity mole and think Tracy Gold is the Mole! who knows though. Krystal's birthday is in March and she's taking me to IOA, Universal and a hotel. Jst me, her, and her mom. Real excited, haven't had room service in forever. Okay I g2g suddenly.........
Your one desire, Pull on me, baby And I'll take you higher You should try her, So come over here and let's go so"
Woah wonder how she's gonna perform those songs!!! Um watching celebrity mole and think Tracy Gold is the Mole! who knows though. Krystal's birthday is in March and she's taking me to IOA, Universal and a hotel. Jst me, her, and her mom. Real excited, haven't had room service in forever. Okay I g2g suddenly.........
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
Your soul is bound to the White Rose: The
Pure.
"I've been waiting in the dark for a long
time, shining my beacon of hope through the
shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your
eyes from me."
The White Rose is associated with purity, honor,
and chastity. It is governed by the goddess
Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape.
As a White Rose, you are a person of your word.
You may have a strong moral code, but
regardless of your virtue, you always stay true
to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of
emotional forms and it's just a matter of
waiting for it to bless you. Some people may
say you are too idealistic, but it's only
because you don't want to mess things up.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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Pure.
"I've been waiting in the dark for a long
time, shining my beacon of hope through the
shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your
eyes from me."
The White Rose is associated with purity, honor,
and chastity. It is governed by the goddess
Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape.
As a White Rose, you are a person of your word.
You may have a strong moral code, but
regardless of your virtue, you always stay true
to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of
emotional forms and it's just a matter of
waiting for it to bless you. Some people may
say you are too idealistic, but it's only
because you don't want to mess things up.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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Dido - White Flag Lyrics
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of 'It's over'
Then I'm sure that that makes sense
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
As I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of 'It's over'
Then I'm sure that that makes sense
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
As I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
so its 6:40pm now and i feel like writing sumthin, anything at all. I'm convinced my computer is possessed by spirits cuz weird, unexplainable stuff keep happening. Hmmm. I called my parents for the 4th time though theyre not picking up the phone. The reason for the calling is to remind them to get paper towels and windex or sumthin cuz Yoko, my dog, is regurgitating in every place possible. That was a nice word there instead of puke or throw upLol-big words remind me of Dawson's Creek-I miss the show. YES! they called bac, whoopi. Today in English we learned subject-verb agreement. I love the song 'White Flag" by Dido. Its awesome. AWESOME o wow...like totally frak me out I mean right on..Marta sure is #1.............NOT. So i'll be stuck with cleaning up after Yoko since I'm the only one in the family not grossed out by it. Guess thats why I could be a doctor.....butI can't cuz i dunno how i would feel if a patient of mine dies in surgery. Ouch....big ouch. lol Thanksgiving break is next week. I'm extatic. No really....lol. I dont think I'll go to cgoir for 2 hours tonight...even though I was supposed to. I might go to the gym for an hour though.....if I dont procrastinate on my homework like I'm doing right now. SO I have nothing to wear tomorrow. Nothing to eat either. Its almost 7 now and I had a coke and 22 Dorito chips. Unhealthy yea but theres nothing else. And I'm hungry. Got 16 points left still so I'll use the rest for healthy food my rents r supposed to be buying now. REminder to self~get picture book, or book itself of Dante's Inferno...very intersting book.
